Over the last few weeks I have thought often about the future of this blog. The way I see it, I have three choices:
1. I stop writing all together.
2. I change the focus to writing about grief and my life post Aidan.
3. I continue to talk about the realities of life when you know your child is dying.
I have decided to go with the latter. I still need to write because it’s therapeutic and gives somewhere for all my thoughts to go instead of swirling around in my head in the middle of the night but to write about grief seems pointless when there are already so many amazing blogs out there on this topic. So I will continue my original aim, which is to give a voice to parents in the unique situation that I found myself in over the past five years.
I still have many topics and half written blog posts waiting to be told and I hope that I can continue to relate to the hundreds of other parents currently living a life in limbo.
I received a wonderful message yesterday from a mother of a terminally ill child. In it she wrote, “I prayed to whomever or whatever last night and asked that I could somehow, someway find some comfort today. Your blog comforted me today, and I’m thankful to you.” This message alone gives me a reason to keep going. I hope you will continue to share this journey with me.