So it’s one month until Christmas and I have to admit, I’m really struggling this week. I’d like to blame it on the pregnancy hormones but I know I always get like this before a big occasion. That overwhelming sense of dread sneaks up on me and I truly struggle to fight it off.
I’m very much aware of how I get before birthdays, Easter, Mother’s Day and Christmas, indeed I’ve written about it in this blog before. However, knowing how crazy I get and telling myself that my fears are unfounded doesn’t seem to be helping.
On top of my fear that Aidan won’t make it to the big day, the stress of not only finding time to go shopping but being able to pay for all the Christmas gifts is giving me major anxiety attacks. I should have learnt how to cope with Christmas by now but every year I repeat the same old cycle. Instead of being grateful that I have Aidan, I’m fighting a war against my brain, and frankly I’m fed up with myself.
I know that I am not going to be able to completely quash my anxieties but I am using this blog to make a public promise that I am going to try to make some much needed changes this year.
So here are the rules for Christmas 2013.
- Don’t overdo it by taking Aidan to every single Christmas event when he would probably just prefer quality one on one time.
- Don’t go crazy making it the ‘perfect’ last Christmas. It’s physically and emotionally exhausting, not to mention humanly impossible.
- Say ‘no’ occasionally and instead of catching up with everyone before Christmas; spend quality time with Aidan and Anthony instead.
- Don’t spend hours and hours stressing over getting everyone the ‘perfect’ gift. Be satisfied getting something I know they will like and hopefully use.
Will I be able to stick to the rules? Who knows? But one thing is for sure, I’m going to try. It may or may not be Aidan’s last Christmas, but it’s certainly his last one as an only child and for once I plan on making him my complete priority.
Please hold me to this promise.